can someone please verify my exsistance. :[
I think I'm invisible to everyone in my family.... :[

So I just came back from a long trip and there I had no chance to b/p so I think the cycle is finally broken, and I'm healthy once again. So I very happy. I also did a lot of shopping recently. I bought a lot of abercrombie and fitch, and hollister clothes. In addition I bought 2 new juicy couture purses, once is a gold large one and another small brown one.

I think I lost a little bit of weight recently, so I'm so confidant and decided to make a post on guessmyweight.

Much love, Salfee <33

Hmm... I haven't posted in a while. So currently my life is a mess, I'm out of control with food. My schedual is wake up eat breakfast (200 calories), and then school, lunch (300 caories) and then I come home and binge and purge. Ususally I will restrict and then the cycle continues, but now after purge I binge more. The worst part is my graduation is comming up in two months, and I want to lose at least 10 pounds but how can I when I don't stop eating.

So today, I decided not to eat just to get back at my parents. I'm so fucking pissed right now. And in like an hour so shit as fuckhead are comming over. WTF. I hate my fucking life, and all I can say is that by not eating at all is the best way to get back at my parents. I hope they're fucking happy. Oh and btw I also used a $50 cigar for my project, just to get back at my dad, cuz he thinks I wasted money. HAHAHA FUCK YOU!!!! Sorry for this rent, I'm just fucking pissed. And you know I';m pissed when I swear so much.

Oh and I hate how the best way to get back at my parents is by not eating. But I don't give a fucking shit at the moment.

So I have a new plan. Since my longest was 2 days withour b/p. I will do this. Go 3 days now and b/p on the fourth. Then go 4 days and b/p on the fifth. Then go 5 days and b/p on the sixth. and so on.. Until I (hopefully)reach 40 days. And if I mess up I'll start clean the next day from where I ended off. Wish me luck XD

So today I went SHOPPING!!! <333 Chea!!! I'm a total shopaholic, and I bought a purse. And I'm planning to buy a juicy coutoure purse too <3 Hmm.. I just went shopping a few days afo too, and got this really cute Abercrombie and Fitch sweater on sale for $60.00. I'm looking for a hollister sweater too o_0. Anyways, I spend ALL my time either shopping or b/p. Blah. And I still have so much homework!!!

Anyways, today I didn't binge and purge... yet. I hope I can resist the urge, but it's going to be hard because my parents are going o the dentist and I'm home alone. And it's only 5:45pm right now and I'm starving. Hmm... o_0. And right now I have so much delicious food in my house that irresistible. Just thinking about it makes me droul. I have cookies, chips, tart, almonds (I die for them), yogurt, and pasteries <3 DELISH!!!> HOw can I not binge. HELP ME!!! I'm kinda want to convert to a healthy lifestyle and a healthy weight. Right now my BMI is 16.5 and I want to gain 5 pounds. But then again I don't. I'm so confused someone help me!!!!!

So this is my first entry ever on LIVEJOURNAL!! Whoa, seems like I've been here for a long time cuz I always read post on various communties. Most of the info. on my profile is fake, cuz this place is like my secret hidout where I can expose all my secrets. I'll attempt to join every community that I can relate to. :) Hmm.. I think that's all.